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[05 Jul 2005|01:11pm] |
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If you'd like to be added, just post here & depending on who you are, i'll probably add you. :)
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| When this began... |
[05 May 2005|03:24pm] |
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My drum kit arrived today :)
It's a fucking beast of a kit, it's great. I can't hardly play it realistically though, because my bedroom is joined on to next door, so it's hard to do so without making noise. I'm going to get some silent tips etc... but it'll still be shitty. I want to actually play the thing. Theres nothing else i can do though.
My PC hasn't come yet though, which is shitty. I'm not in all day tomorrow as i'm at work from 6:00am - 9:00am and then i'm off down Daves so it should be here when i get back on saturday.
Something funny; the first time i saw Linkin Park in the best gig ever was 03/03/03. I got my kit on 05/05/05. coicidence? I think not. I' not quite sure what i was doing on 04/04/04, you'll have to cycle back through all the entries to find out.
Anyway. Later.
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| I'm just an abstraction of how i see myself... |
[04 May 2005|12:24am] |
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Hopefully this will be the last time i ever update with this PC as i'm hoping it will come tomorrow. I really really really hope it does, this PC has been too fucked for too long.
My drum kit should be here by next week according to the reply from the drum guys. I wish it'd just hurry up & get here.
I'm liking the NIN album so much more than when i downloaded it all that time ago, it's a great album. I'm liking every track on there.
Nothing much to say really. Later.
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| Fall into sleep, fall into me... |
[01 May 2005|12:21am] |
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I've had a tireing few days. I had to be up at 5:00am Friday & Saturday to be at work for 6:00am, it wasn't fun. I can't seem to go to bed before 12:00am any night at all, despite having to be up early. I went to bed at 1:00am both nights, so i've around 8-9 hours sleep all weekend.
I went to the Rigby residence on Friday and hung around with Liam, we also got Liam Milne down. It was a good time and a laugh. We went uptown that night to draw out some cash for chinese food, whilst i was up there some bloke came and shook my hand and started complimenting my on my OCC shirt. I felt special. Liam M left around 1:00am.
I've ordered a new PC. It should be here sometime next week. I can't wait, i'll actually be able to go on MSN, open more than one window at a time & actually come on the bastard thing for more than 5 mins without it freezing. It's a beast of a PC.
Today has been shit. I've just felt so cranky all day, it's been stuffy and uncomfortable. Next door have been loud, people argueing. I have to be up tomorrow for 8:45am to go to work, i can't be arsed but it's only for a few hours.
I'm off Monday & Thursday next week if anyone wants to do owt. Ring me or whatever.
Later.
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[28 Apr 2005|01:26pm] |
Stolen from Hollie. I can't be arsed to put in the user ID.
What you do is you pick your fave band/singer/composer etc but ONLY ONE, and answer the questions below about yourself, using only the titles of their songs as your answer. Try to pick somone who hasn't been done yet!!!
1.Choose a band / artist and answer ONLY in titles of their songs: Linkin Park
2. Are you male or female: Forgotten
3. Describe yourself: By Myself
4. How do some people feel about you: Runaway
5. How do you feel about yourself: Dedicated
6. Describe your ex boyfriend / girlfriend: Pushing Me Away
7. Describe current boyfriend / girlfriend: Carousel
8. Describe where you want to be: Somewhere I Belong
9. Describe how you live: Easier To Run
10. Describe how you love: With You
11. What would you ask for if you had just one wish: Cure For The Itch
12. Share a few words of Wisdom: Nobody's Listening
13. Now say goodbye: Lying From You
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| What's my release, What sets me free... |
[26 Apr 2005|01:06am] |
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Well, i've had a very busy weekend. Friday, i went down Daves after work as usual. Baggy got intouch earlier in the day and he met me after work so we could go down Daves together, on the way down we saw Jess & Katie. It was really great to see Baggy as i hadn't seen him in a while. Also on Friday i bought some new jeans which cleared me out of cash until Next Friday. Anyway, when we got to Daves Oliver was there along with Dave & Liam R. Liam Milne came later on too so the loft was pretty packed. It was great to get together with all the lads for once and we had a laugh, played games etc. Ofcourse it wouldn't have been a lads night without the Sun Wah run. After a night of talking Baggy & Oliver were the first to go. Liam Milne stayed til 4:30am and then he left too.
I wasn't in work until 3:00pm on Saturday so me and Liam walked up together as we was in at about the same time. That's about all for saturday.
Sunday i was off work and was determined to do something, so with numerous phone calls it ended up being me, Dave, Laura F & Liam M going uptown & bowling. We met at 8:00pm at the top of town, but i met Dave beforehand and walked up with him, we also saw Baggy whilst meeting up too. It's funny, i've grew apart from a lot of people because i haven't saw them in ages, but with Laura i can just pick up where i left off, that's how i know who my true & closest friends are. Anyway, we went to the Roundhouse to begin with and just had a chat and the like, saw quite a few people i know & know of. When 9:30pm rolled around we went bowling & had two games, it was great fun and relaxed. After bowling Laura drove home whilst me, Dave & Liam went to USA Chicken, after that we went back to Liams house and stayed over. Ofcourse we stayed up taking til 4:30am. I ended up sharing a bed with Dave inwhich he stole all the covers, but he probably only did that because i had been ripping him all day. It was a really fun night out anyway, and it was great to see Laura.
Today / Monday has been a busy day. We got up at around 11:30am and soon after left. Me & Liam went to Notts & Dave went to Mandas. We only went to Notts to find a "3" shop to repair Liams phone, but there wasn't one... at all. A waste of time really. It was funny though and a day out. We saw Oliver on the bus to Notts which was funny. When we got back from Notts we went to Daves house to pick up my Cd / Mp3 player i had left there, but no-one was home. So, we went for a meal in Observatory, after the meal we walked to Tesco. Going to Tesco was another stupid thing to add to the list of stupid things me & Liam have done. We had to spend 30 pounds, so we could get 1 pounds off with a voucher that expired today. So obviously we bought loads of crap for Liam at Uni. When we had finished buying 12 boxes of ceriel Liam headed off home whilst i headed to the Rigby Residence to get my mp3 player. I got it and walked uptown with him as he was at work. I then came home and here i am.
So, it's been a long one and i'm back to work tomorrow. Goody. I get paid a lot of money on friday though, so that's good. :)
I'm thinking about going to Uni. I know i said i didn't want to go but i've been thinking and it seems logical. I wouldn't move away despite maybe wanting to because i have other commitments like friends and playing the drums and other things that circle those two things. So no, i wouldn't move. I need to do some thinking though, because to actually go to Uni i'd probably have to go to college for another year to get my points up, but that may not be neccesary as i'll be a mature student. I know what area i'd like to study but i'm not sure on the course yet, i'm looking into it.
I want to begin driving within the next couple of months, so i'm definately going to get some info on that and hopefully get it sorted.
Maybe getting a new PC this month, FINALLY getting rid of this piece of shit. We'll see.
Anyway, i'm tired.
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| In this hole that is me... |
[20 Apr 2005|12:35am] |
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New neighboors today. All skaggs. :)
Work was shitty, the only good thing was Hayley being there for an hour & seeing Laura. I was so happy to see Laura considering i haven't seen her in ages. We talked for ages, despite us both being at work, she came in to get some light bulbs, so obviously we spoke for like half an hour. I miss her so much. I miss everyone. I miss everything. It was good anyway and brightened up my day. I also saw Katie briefly too.
I'm doing some crappy food hygiene test tomorrow at work all day. I hope it's better than actually working. Have i mentioned i'm off on Thursday yet? Most likely. I want to go out and be free for the one day i'm off. Liam being at Uni sucks ass, as i only see him about 2-3 times a week over the weekends. Oh well, that's good compared to Olivers shitty once a fortnight effort even though he lives 5 minutes down the road. I guess some people change... shame eh. I still love everyone despitte change though. A little time goes a long way though.
Okay. I've been thinking about what apprenticeship i would do given the choice and they all suck. I figure, why do something for the crack if i don't want to. For example, if i take decorating as an internship, what will it lead to, me being a decorater, haha, yeah right. I don't want that. Okay there are apprenticeships that involve audio, graphics, multi-media and theatre apparantly, atleast according to some websites, but if someone could show me where to go, i would be extremely fucking gratefull, because these sites show me shit. Connexions on Thursday morning i think, wether they can help me or not though is another story.
The new TOAD album is brilliant. The new Adema album seems okay, but has nothing on the older Albums with Mark.
Later.
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| A one-way ticket is a pretty good sign... |
[19 Apr 2005|12:13pm] |
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Yesterday was different. I was at work from 11am - 8pm, but Liam M came in at around dinner time, so i thought fuck it and went to have dinner with him & Dave. We went to Mail House & i had bangers & mash which was very nice indeed... and big. Stayed with them two for an hour and an half then went back to work, and still took another half hour break anyway.
Off Thursday, hopefully doing something fun.
I still have a cold, sort of and it's still pissing me off.
I need to find out what i want to do next, and fast. I can't stay like this. Maybe some people can, but i can't. It's not for me. At all.
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| There is no fucking you, only me... |
[17 Apr 2005|12:28am] |
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Went to Daves & Liams yesterday after work as usual. Had a good time, listened to trucker music & talked. Stayed up late too because i wasn't at work til 03:00pm
With Teeth is a brilliant album. It was expected, but ya know, it still is. My favorite is "Everyday Is Exactly The Same". Followed by "All The Love In The World", "Sunspots" & "Right Where It Belongs". It's all great though.
Thursdays plan: Haircut. Connextions. Getting out of my house & hopefully doing something that is fun.
I'm at work tomorrow, which blows monkey balls, but don't it always. :)
Inabit.
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| I used to have a voice. Now i never make a sound... |
[15 Apr 2005|12:00pm] |
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"With Teeth" seems great anyway, looking forward to the actual release of the album now. Although, i'm happy with my MP3's for now. Also, if anyone cares, head on over to http://www.limpbizkit.com for a video of "The Truth". It don't seem too bad. "Take Me" is set to Papa Roach's next single, but "Scars" was never played here, so we have no chance foe this one at all.
I'm up farely early today, surprisingly. I have work at 3:00pm, than i'm off to Daves which i'm looking forward to. I'm still feeling reminiscent from the past few days, i don't know what's come over me. I think getting together with most of everyone at Olivers and looking through the photos has something to do with it. The old times were great, but i'm talking like they're over, surely they're not.
I think that's about all. Later.
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| You're the sunlight on my face... |
[13 Apr 2005|12:08pm] |
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Yesterday was strange, the day was amazing, the weather was great. It seemed like the old days so much & it also felt i should've been doing something a bit more productive than going to work. It reminded me of summer. Such a fucking shame that nothing could come out of a great day like that.
Today don't look as bright, but i have a feelig it will still be the same when i go off to work soon. I bet everyone feels like that though most of the time, that they could be doing something they actually want to do rather than go to work. Fucked up.
Today has been wasted already, i'm just going to go to work, come back and nothing is going to happen. I need a holiday. I need a life.
Yeah, sorry for all these Emo posts lately, i don't usually get like this, but i figured why not.
My Theory Of A Deadman CD came today finally. I also need to sort some stuff out with some shirts i ordered. My Wraith Cd & Linkin Park CD's never came. Fuckers.
These days have reminded me about when i first started listening to Dry Cell, the summer of about 2-3 years ago. They were the days.
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| Tear me from myself... |
[12 Apr 2005|01:21pm] |
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Well the past two days have been okay. Got up farely early both days despite not being at work. Sunday was good. Went to Olivers around 6:00pm with Dave. It was a good time, Liam Milne came down too later on & so did Liam Rigby. It was a laugh and actually nice to be all together for once.
Everytime we get together at Olivers we look through the thousands of pics he has on his PC of all the parties and other random stuff we've done at his house. It's always good to be reminded of the good times and how great they truly were. It'd be nice to do something like that again, but it's so hard to do so. Shame really, because it'd be great.
It's kinda awkward watching my little brother get into rock music, it's just weird, it's a good thing though, he bought the Adema album Monday, i'm still waiting for my import to arrive. I've done a fare bit on Doom 3 now, it's rather good. I've finished Splinter Cell now too.
Monday was wierd, i thought i'd go shopping with my mum, so me & sam climbed aboard the matress mobile and went to Tesco, the last time i do that. It was a mess, probably because we went to the huge Tesco. Yeah, it wasn't too bad, i still came out with my minted lamb steaks.
I've been thinking lately about my life in general and how shallow it is. Having this job is so predictable and repetative and everything i don't want really. It's funny how i thought getting a job would solve all my problems, but it's made me feel exactly the same as i did before but only in different circumstances. I guess i'll always feel like this until i'm doing something i actually want to do, but when is that going to happen? It's all well & good having hopes and dreams but can i really rely on them to pull me through the shit i'm going through now?
It annoys me how i can't do what I want to do. Living in a played out life goes against everything i believe in and yet i'm doing it. I hate how we are pressure into jobs we don't need or want by parents & society becuase that's the thing to do, that's the way it should be. To escape the dead end rut i'm in at the minute could be easily solved by going to UNI or getting an apprenticeship, but if i did either i'd be an hypocrite because i don't want to do any of them. I'm not just going to do any random apprenticeship when it's not what i want.
One thing i won't do is quit and cash in on the system. I refuse to get benefits. Although, i'd probably get more money than i do now. Now, that's fucked up.
Anyway, i watched Raw last night and i'm at work in just over an hour so i'm off to make some hot pockets.
http://music.yahoo.com/ar-292620---Seether The Remedy video is up. It's a pretty good video, i really like the song though.
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| If you want me hold me back... |
[07 Apr 2005|09:31pm] |
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Not been doing much this week really, playing Splinter Cell 3 which is great & been blowing my money on a lot of clothes, i would show you them all, but i really can't be arsed. I was up at 5:00am for work so i'm kinda tired. I'm off down Daves after work tomorrow to do the usual friday stuff, hopefully Oliver will be round so we can do that fuckin' second co-op level on Splinter Cell 3, come on Oliver, we can do it!
http://www.seether.com "Remedy" is a great song by the sounds of things, also likin' the new art and pics. Good stuff, can't wat for Karma & Effect now.
Doom 3 tomorrow, probably won't play it til Saturday if it don't come though.
I have a cold and i feel shitty, i hope it goes away sooner rather than later, i have to be up at 6:00am on Saturday, and if i feel like this and i'm staying at Daves anyway, i don't know if i will be able to bring myself to go in to work, i will though, just to keep up my no sick day record.
Watched Raw & Mania, watched WrestleManis w/ Liam at his house, it was quite a fun night. It was also nice to watch a ppv w/ people, like the old days. Shame Dave wasn't there though.
Anyway, that's about all.
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| How long will i cry for you in the dark... |
[31 Mar 2005|01:15am] |
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http://www.soil-music.com Sounds pretty good, I'll need to hear a few more songs before i judge too harshly though. AJ sounds pretty good non-the less and it could have been a lot worse. Anyway, still no Ryan, but i'll give him a chance.
Today i've just been relaxing pretty much and playing games. Also figureing out what i'm spending my money on on friday. Also rang Liam M and spoke to him for a while and that's about all really.
At work at 4:00pm tomorrow so i get a lye in and shit. Good stuff.
That's about it for now. Later.
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[29 Mar 2005|10:04pm] |
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It's been a boring week as usual, just looking forward to getting paid on Friday, i'm off tomorrow though. Although i have nothing planned. At all.
Getting Splinter Cell 3 on Friday, along with some other stuff off the internet. Some CD's i need to get and i'm also gonna get my Hi-Hat too.
The new Cold songs are amazing.
Going to get my contact lenses & drivers license sorted this month.
By the way Dave, i'm coming down yours at about half Eleven in the morning on Friday, so you better be up. *shakes fist*
Wrestlemania XXI on Sunday, i'll watch it live. I'm looking forward to it i suppose.
Anyway, later people.
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| All that's wasted, it's all inside... |
[23 Mar 2005|02:15pm] |
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Today is my first day off in just over a week which is great. I actually got up early to make the most of the dayinstead of having a lye in. I met Liam R on the bus at 11:00am to go down Notts, i'm back now and at his & Daves house. I'm all alone though because they've gone to their grandma's so i'm just chilling on the pc and shit.
It's a really nice day today. Great weather, it reminds me of some distant memory i can't quite picture, but it's good. Kinda remids me of freedom, what life used to be like.
I know nobody wants to know how shitty work is at the moment, but it sucks. I'm on a 9 hour contract and doing 44 a week, i shouldn't complain as i'm getting the money, but it's not really worth it in retrospect. I'd rather have the time than all the cash. Plus as the days go by, i find another reason why it's so shit. I'm cutting my hours soon and taking advantage of my legal rights. I'll probably get a better job sometime soon.
Well, with that aside. My drums should be arriving within the next few weeks. I can't wait, it's all i want to do and all i'm going to invest in. I'm going to practice and learn as much as possible. It's almost time.
So. My Wraith & Linkin Park CD's never came from Ebay, and they swear they have sent them. Does anyone have any ideas what i can do to track the parcels down or anything?
Hopefully when i get paid this month i'll have some cash to spend. I'm hoping it touches the £300 mark, it should, but i'm not quite sure. I owe Dave £100 and my mum £80.
Me & my brother completed Resident Evil 4 earlier this week and have unlocked all the mercenaries characters in the sub-game, we're just working to the ***** rankings with all the characters now. Great game by the way. I also need to get Splinter Cell 3 & Doom 3 within the next month, i also hope to get my license to pro0ve my age as City I.D's so harshly now. Fair enough i guess.
Didn't end up going to Olivers on Sunday like i'd planned. Dave didn't go, so i didn't bother either. Shame really, as i haven't been to Olivers in a while. Hopefully we'll get the chance to go down again soon.
Whilst i'm here at Daves (& Liams) i'm ripping some tracks onto my Mp3 player as i can't on my home PC. Using this PC is like an orgasm with a disk drive, unlike my PC which is like a hernia.
Saw lots of Good Charlotte fans waiting to see them at Nottingham Rock City this morning at 11:30am ish. Yeah, this isn't going anywhere, i just felt like saying so.
Anyway, that's enough typing. Later people.
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| Close your eyes and watch me fly... |
[20 Mar 2005|03:36pm] |
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It's been a boring week or so really, i've just been working as usual. I went to see Hostage earlier in the week with Dave, Oliver & Manda. It was a pretty good time, the movie was okay too. Been watching/playing Resident Evil 4 for the past few days. It seems really good.
Went to Daves last night instead of the usual Friday, mainly becuase Liam R was working Friday and Resident Evil came out, so Saturday was best. We ordered pizza & played games. Liam M also came down which is always funny.
Going out later on aswell to Olivers house for a change. Yeah, Barbara is away... but no party this time. Strange.
Working all week next week too, 44 hours this week. Fun eh? When my drum kit comes i'm cutting my hours so i will actually have time to play it.
Anyway, later.
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| Singing for the forgotten song... |
[10 Mar 2005|12:17pm] |
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When i went to Daves on Tuesday i ended up staying down there in my new comfy sofa bed. We also didn't go down Notts, because Liam bought a new Silver PRS guitar instead. It was a fun day on Tuesday anyway, mostly talking and playing PES. Yesterday i came home at about 3:00pm and played on my american import of Tekken 5. It's brilliant and easily the best Tekken yet. Soon after i caught the bus back to Daves house, met up with Oliver too and then Me, Dave, Liam R & Oliver went to the cinema. We saw Flight Of The Phoenix, which was an enjoyable film, although predictable, but i'm glad i saw it.
Yesterday was the first time i've seen Oliver in over a month. Atleast he didn't roll up a fatty when he was out with us anyway.
Today i have nothing planned... at all. I'm just going to play Tekken 5 and be lazy.
I'll be off down Daves tomorrow though as usual. It would be nice to see Oliver there for a change, but you never know what the fuck he's doing nowadays. We're all going out on Saturday though, hopefully, so i'm looking forward to that. Also, if Liam R wants to go to Notts on Saturday with me, that would be cool cause i want a new t-shirt. So, let me know if you want to.
Later.
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| Sean: Regarding Sheffield... |
[08 Mar 2005|08:18pm] |
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Sean, in response to your invitation to Sheffield, i'm really up for getting everyone together again, but travelling to Sheffield would be too much trouble to organize. It would be a lot easier if you and Cisty came back to Ilson for the week or something, as then, Everyone at Uni will be back in Ilson that same week too and it would be less hassle for everyone to travel again after getting back from Uni. We just think it would be easier to have two people come to Ilson than have 10 or more people travel to Sheffield.
I'm also not sure what days i'll be working until the weekend before easter week, much like Liam R so to travel to Sheffield and stay over would be probably be tight to fit in during our work schedule.
I think it would be best for you to come back here also, because you could stay much longer at your dads than we possibly could in Sheffield due to work, driving lessons and all the commitments of everyone else. I'd much rather say something and try to sort something out than not saying anything and watch it pass by.
Plus, Coral really pisses us off, so being with her in Sheffield would be like scratching my balls with a cheese grater. As, more than likely she will be there.
Like i said, i'm really up for getting everyone together, but i, like others, can't guarantee days i can make it to Sheffield to stay over. I hope you don't take this as an excuse for not wanting to get together again, the truth is we do, but it's not as easy for anyone anymore and i see it as being; it would be easier for you to name the days you and Christine will be back in Ilson and everyone working around that, even if it's just for a drink up town or whatever.
P.S. If anyone has a problem with the above, see below:-
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